The Woods 🌿🌳🍂🪶

"The clearest way into the universe is through a forest wilderness." - John Muir

This quote applied to me quite literally. It has been my routine almost every evening to take a lengthy walk into the woods.

The introspection and calmness that the woods offer defy verbal explanation . On this particular Monday evening, as I strolled through the woods, I couldn't help but remember my old days when my entire sanity depended on these walks and the murmurs of the trees lining my path.

During these walks, I cried, prayed, and cursed all in equal measure. My life had been tumultuous nearly  engulfing me entirety .I was in utter darkness. Before that, it had been chaos. But somehow I felt I could handle the chaos, just not this darkness. I was in debt, I felt betrayed, isolated, jobless,  and as if that wasn't enough, I had just turned 30! It contradicted all the goals I had set for myself by age 30.

I felt like a failure, felt like I had disappointed myself, my parents, my mentors, my siblings (as a firstborn), and society at large. I was scared, helpless, alone, and exhausted. All I had was God and the solace of the trees.

In the midst of despair , I could sense the trees offering reassurance , their whispers promising that this too shall pass.I could literally feel my breathing and wished the wind could just blow me away.  

From a distance, I could hear a voice telling me to be thankful that I'm alive and healthy. At least I could walk. I could feel my legs. My breathing was unrestricted, and I could feel Pain when I knocked my toe.

With each step, I clung to hope, eventually finding  my way into the universe.

Never lose hope. Hold on. Whether to the trees, to your own resilience, to a friend, to the whims of the wind,  but most importantly to God. It shall pass. I can attest to this transformation - from hopelessness to a place of strength and gratitude.

Believe the still small voice. For it carries the truth.

Hugs,

Sherry Tharua 💕